I would have my repentant Mark 9:24 moments (I believe; help my unbelief!). Other times, I KNOW I was in faith, taking authority, and in peace and yet still I would ask a little disheartened, Where is the manifestation? Maybe it is a unity thing,--I check in with my husband--we are on the same page, standing in faith together. Under the blood...in the new covenant. Ok. Sigh...What IS it, God?
The other night as I was drifting off to sleep, I saw a vision of a Rubik's cube. God showed me that I approach circumstances and situations like puzzles...trying to line up each color, determining to make sense of it all. When the colors are not arranged in the clockwise order that I had anticipated, I would grow confused and frustrated. In my human capacity, I can only see one dimension.
God, in His infinite majesty and sovereignty will allow the internal pivot mechanism to turn at different times in my life, rearranging that which I did not want rearranged. In His perfect omniscience and customized love for my life, He operates in dimensions I know not of. He will introduce another color, incrementally, just when He sees fit.
It is during the times that do not make sense from the outside that God is prophetically aligning our unique calling and destiny. The problem is, we try to figure it out. The natural mind constantly seeks to elevate itself above the mind of God. We worship the false idols of HOW and WHEN. But HOW fails us once and WHEN fails us twice, and we find ourselves on our knees a third time.
It is not that God does not want us to ask questions. Our inquisition can lead to seeking. Seeking is a good thing. Jeremiah 29:13 promises, "And ye shall seek Me, and find Me, when ye search for Me with all your heart." Our questions only become an issue when our walk is affected...when we take on the shape of a question mark"?"---the lie that we are merely hunched-back beggars, lacking something. God wants us to lift up our heads and our hearts to Him, and simply thank Him.
In our thanking, in our worship, and in our praise, the questions will start to fade (or maybe they will still be there?--just choose not to look at them). Be okay with not knowing. Be still and know that He is God. If He will be exalted among the nations, surely He will be exalted in your circumstances. He is the God of "suddenlies"...one day it will all line up.
